Monday August 14, 2017, A Day full of Varied Emotions.
My Wife had her yearly Mammogram. All was clear, come back in one year, yeah! This was also the Day my Father-in-law, Lee Van Hayes passed away in 2013. Four years ago this day I was rushed into Emergency Open Heart Surgery. The news of my Jill’s Dad passing, I was clueless to reality due trouble coming off the Ventilator. I felt awful being heavily sedated, while my Jill had to deal with his passing without me. I was on the ventilator for 6 weeks. I still felt sad; I was not there for her, when she was there for me, while still having to take Chemo and Radiation. My wife holds no grudge and never would, and I have forgiven myself.
This is the essence of the Marriage Vows; In Sickness and in Health, to never abandon one another regardless of the challenges. We reach down tighten our boot straps and move onward one step at a time, with God lighting our Pathway. – Barry Baynes, writer –
We would never, use word, in the manner suggested by our research, Words are fun, filthy, entertaining, loving and very descriptive, as we all know they can be mean. I was one of the kids that tripped over her own Jeans. I have a set of lovely knees and jeans to share.
I saved them to see if my scars still match up with. Crazy things we do as kids. Hopefully, learning a few words will make a day/book more interesting………………………….Jill B.
God has been good to us! With our troubles, we are happy, getting healthy, in love, looking forward to our future together and hopefully looking at leaving our maladies behind.
Life goes on. Please forgive us for becoming fairly non-existent since early 2014. Barry and I have managed to move four times; without killing one another. I am learning that I have a smidge of patience; instead of it being part of my everyday life. I despise three words (Time, Appointments and Doctors). I hate depending on people to take me places; much less help me do anything that personal (eyebrows, nails, etc…. Is it in the plan for the hair on your face to quadruple when you get above the age of 50?)
I truly understand the Lord has a plan for each of us and we should not question those plans. I will stop sounding like I mean to question the plan; just a little frustrated and sounding off. I am working on sounding off…..I am working hard on giving things to Jesus. I found it hard, to just cut things off and hand it all over to Jesus. day by day, as I study the Bible and life gets easier and I can now state, “if the call comes I am ready to go”. I beleive I have always known this, my mind and body had to sync up. I am no longer worried about my sweetheart. When I look at him, I see peace in his eyes. He deserves it!
by Jill B.
My title is not fair to all doctor’s. I enjoy the physicians I am currently working with. The dread I am referring to is what they are going to tell me or ask me to do. Since 2012, the neurologist I see thinks he needs to change the medications I am taking, just to see if something new will help.
What I have discovered and verbalize to them is “NOTHING HELPS”. I feel like a lab rat at times. Actually had one physician say I should feel honored to be in his presence because is that good! Needless to say, I refuse to ever see him again.
I have enjoyed working with the rehab center and the cancer specialist. They try to cover every aspect of care a patient may need. They offer incredible services at Winship.
After everything, we have been through, it is wonderful to be treated special after certain diagnoses. The sad part is the numbers of people in and out of the doctors offices at Winship.
One of the things that I dread yearly, is my thyroid scan. It is such a long process and it takes all week just to get to the point where the scan can be done. For some reason, My Protein levels are staying elevated and thyroid cancer is playing hide and seek in my throat. The last PET Scan showed there is still something in my neck. Hopefully, this will be the last treatment for a few years. This is only the fifth time since 2009.
Personally, I am ready to run away from home. I put a smile on my face and keep going. I refuse to let this or anyone get me down. I need to take care of myself, Barry, Maggie and mom. I am faithful the the Good Lord will be by my side through the next week. It has been a bad couple of weeks and it is time to turn things around. Have a joyful week everyone!
A breast cancer diagnosis, brought questions flooding in,
After the process was explained, one tiny question remained,
scores of specialist could not answer, I was scared silly of what was to come.
They called me “Lucky”, to have the tumor caught so early,
The treatments that followed were easy to get through,
Thanks to my cousin, Cindy, for sharing her secrets of survival,
What could have been unbearable, became tolerable,
Thanks for the info cuz, it was much appreciated.
Once the lumpectomy was over and the chemo began,
I found myself awestruck of the millions that have gone before me!
all of the fight, strength, love and passion that has gone before me,
I persevere to continue the fight!
Thank you, Ladies for the inspiration to keep going.
I am a survivor, I refused to let this bring me down.
My chemo was coming to an end and I knew radiation was the next step,
Little did I know my journey was just beginning.
My sweetheart became seriously ill and needed immediate surgery to survive,
The same night my father went home to be with the Lord. As Barry slept, I told him to be strong,
I knew he was a survivor, Several family members and our Pastor helped me through the hard parts.
Life started to calm and a routine began, while Barry was being cared for at the hospital,
I left daily for my radiation treatments and returned just before supper.
Our Jeep had to be on auto-pilot to get me, from the hospital and back daily.
Once the oncologist suggested we turn my ovaries off,
first thing I pictured was a little switch that needed to be turned on each ovary, she had other things
in mind, once I knew my options,
I took the injection until I could schedule the surgery needed,
I knew the minute I woke from surgery, that my Doctor had been successful.
My first official hot flash was in the recovery room!
The Estrogen and other things produced by my ovaries are now gone, the surgeon had a wee surprise for me,
Soy can mimic Estrogen in the body, soooooooooo…..no over the counter remedies for me!
Now the brown spots, the “hot and cold” flashes and mood swings were just around the corner,
On March 28, 2014, I was thrown face first into MENOPAUSE!
Most of you are aware that my mother lives with us.We both love her to pieces, but she can be a handful. I will not deny when she makes biscuits, we both indulge. Mom has been wonderful helping around the house. There are certain things I love her assistance with and others I prefer to do myself. I want to be able to keep moving. When I slow down, I may not be able to speed up. I can barely keep up with Barry now.
Mom and I just hang back and watch Barry go and go and go……He has turned into the Energizer Bald Bunny with reading glasses. He is so cute.
We made a trip to Emory for a follow-up mammogram. Scheduled my thyroid scan for the first week in August. I will be radioactive for a bit, but hopefully they will get this taken care of and I can get a little rest. Barry and I both deserve it. Two other appointments on Monday.
To top our week off, I have pneumonia again. I have got to work on immune system. I can’t seem to shake feeling weak.
Life has slowed to a point that I might get a post or two in. Barry gets home from the hospital and settled down, then Mom had a problem that required a hospital.She is home and feeling better. She is actually with one of my sisters for a few days. We hope everyone had a wonderful July 4th. We made it a Pajama day and accomplished nothing at all. My health is stable. I wasn’t happy with my last MRI, but God has a plan…I take one day at a time….Oooooooops, I forgot our Maggie. Our treasured family pet has joined the rest of our happy home, with health issues. Our sweet baby has developed an arrhythmia and possibly a brain tumor. The first week Barry was home, Maggie went into Congestive Heart Failure, due to the irregular heartbeat. She has since suffered three seizures and has something making her right cheek protrude. It looks so bad, but she does not appear to be in pain…..Thank Goodness……..
One day at a time, that is the slogan in our home!
More tomorrow. My hands are getting tired. We need to get back in a routine of typing. My kitchen is calling….Have a great weekend all! God Bless!
I have difficulty with “the ease” cardiologist have when diagnosing heart conditions. The echocardiogram is done two different ways in today’s medical facilities.
Of course, they know what they are looking for and how to find it. The actual sonogram of the heart is quite simple. As a woman, I am terrified of the sonogram. The device has made a strange turn for women; you can compare the new procedure to the latest form of echocardiogram. As a patient, the versatility of the device amazes me. I am tickled pink there is a non-invasive procedure available to heart and other patients in need.
Barry had his second echo this am. He feels really good about the test. Now the wait is on for a call from the good Dr. C. He will be the man calling to pass the good news on to my Bear. We will not accept anything but good news. I feel good about the test as well. I have prayed daily that the good Lord is watching over us and that things will work. We both have faith. Thank you!