Happy Anniversary, Honey!

You swooped down and swept me off my feet;
Since day one you let me know I am loved and
made it your goal to make my dreams come true;

When life reared it’s ugly head and knocked us both on our tails;
As times got tough, and we were not sure what to do;
You stood firm by my side letting me draw from your
strength;

I haven’t a clue what I did to deserve you;
but I thank the Good Lord daily, that you are in my life;
I want you to know I love you more everyday;
I do not know what I would do without you;

Thank you, Barry, thank you;
for being the light in my life.

I’m not a poet by any means and I know I broke every rule out there on poetry, but I wanted to tell Barry how I felt.

My New Least Favorite Words on Earth: Incidental Findings

Dr. M, my now urologist, seems like a very good doctor with a great personality/bedside manner. My appointment today went great. The kidney ultrasound is good, with one little issue to follow. Otherwise Dr. M. says my kidney’s are beautiful. Awwww, how sweet. They better be! About the only organ I have left that functions correctly.

What gets me about Cowdens Syndrome is the unknown. Today, I’m told I actually have an organ that is functioning properly, but we need to watch this “one” little spot. We want to make sure it isn’t something forming that shouldn’t be where it is. So, my roller coaster of doctors continues.

On top of the little spot that needs watching on the right kidney. It appears there is an incidental finding on my liver. He would  like to schedule an MRI, to get a better look. So, more tests, more waiting and more unknowns.

I feel like I am fussing about what is going on in my body. I truly believe that Jesus died to save us from our sins. I believe that the Good Lord has a plan for us and we shouldn’t question that plan. My life is in his hands and I am not exactly how to hand my troubles over to the Lord and not worry.

After my appointment today, I wasn’t what I would call questioning things, but I was so frustrated with the news that it brought me to tears. When I got to a private place, I asked the Lord for the grace and strength I need to make it through all of this news. My fears eased.

It is just so incredibly hard to deal with all of this. Today, I felt like the robot from “Lost in Space“.Turning in circles, arms flopping, thinking, “fix me Will Robinson, fix me!” If it were only that easy.