Living with a Rare Genetic Disorder Part 2

mermaidbrunetteHuge reality of living with a rare genetic disorder, is that you get to know a lot of doctors. I’m enclosing the list I have to keep up with regularly. I’m surprised Barry and I get anywhere when we have a scheduled appointments.

                 MM900283642Primary Care Physcian

                 MM900336585Neurosurgeon

                      MM900282885Neurologist

               fishyNeuro-oncologist

               teddybearitchdrkOtolaryngolosist

               funnyladybug081906Neuro-opthamologist

              bearkiss2Opthamologist

                butterflybug3Orthopedist

              beeani0822Chiropractor

             sickbugs Endocrinologist

              gofishy2General Surgeon

              MP900412070Gynecologist

                purplebutterflyGynecologist-Breast Health Specialist 

                MM900283822Geneticist

                Dentist

              0511-1006-2819-1529_Toothache_Cartoon_Character_clipart_image Oral Surgeon

               0060-0505-2317-5248Gastroenterologist

               MM900336468Psychiatrist

              MP900433140  Cardiologist

That is only 19, but at my appointment this week, it was suggested that I locate a Nephrologist and Dermatologist for routine visits. That will put my court up to 22, I believe. These are just the doctors I see, I did not include Barry and Mom’s doctor’s that are part of our monthly routine.

Between church and visiting doctors, no wonder I’m tired. This is the first time I have actually written all of them down. Honestly, I am a bit overwhelmed.

With Cowden’s Syndrome, the important thing to remember is to closely monitor you health and keep up with yearly test as ordered. Missing one appointment  could mean a major health issue, the life or death kind.

I‘m not ready for such, but if the good Lord calls me home, I’ll be in his hands. My life is in his hands always. I’m learning not to question what God’s plan is for me. Just to put my trust in Him and things will be okay. I’m getting there, Lord….working on the fear of the unknown at the moment. It can get scarey!

Living with a Rare Genetic Disease

MP900412070My genetic nightmare started when I was 43 years old. A doctor tells you about a brain tumor st the base of you skull and that it needs to be removed as soon as possible. Your mind immediately starts a road race. Why is this happening to me? Will this affect me in the years to come? Will I be the same after surgery? A million question flood your mind.                    

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Neurologist, I guess, are not known for their bedside manner. Apparently, they aren’t known to be free with information, either. Especially, when the tumor you have is a symptom of a rare genetic disorder that little is known about. Truth be told, he truly did not have a lot of answers for me. I think ratio is one in two-hundred fifty thousand.

butterflybug3Dr. O. was unable to remove all the tumor, due to the type tissue the tumor develops from. It makes it hard to differentiate between normal brain tissue and the tumor. When he first told us this news, I thought ‘great, I’ll have to do this surgery again someday.’ Dr. O. assured us we had nothing to worry about, the tumor is slow-growing and it would not be any further trouble. 

gofishy2Within four months after the surgery I started twitching from my shoulders up. On my first follow-up with Dr. O., he said he could fix the problem, but it meant surgery. He suggested we give it a little time and maybe it would go away on its on. 

teddybearlineIt did not, of course. I was referred to another doctor for evaluation and possible Botox injections. During this appointment, it was discovered that my vocal cords were twitching over 200 times a minute. The Botox was useless on my voice. Other than Barry having a couple of quiet weeks when I could not utter a word, it was useless.

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Unfortunately, other issues developed that Botox can help. I honestly had no idea how much pain I had been in until the Botox took it away. Wonderful stuff, when it works. 

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OK, enough about the past. If you have read my blog, you know what I’ve been through and continue to deal with daily. The following list is my day:

Up around 8am

I start doing eye exercises, as I do my squats on our Total Gym.

After the squats, I move to the exercise ball for push-ups and some balance exercises. I also do a little training with weights on the ball. 

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Then to the weights. I spend about fifteen minutes on weight training.

Leg exercises on the floor are next.

Then I head to the recumbent bike for my morning ride. I’m proud of myself. I can do five miles now without pain in my leg.

That takes forty-five minutes to an hour and I do it four-five times weekly. Our dining room has been converted into my gym. My hubby is so creative.

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I get breakfast next. My eyes are able to focus better by this time, do I feel safe cooking. At this point I will put supper in the crock pot.

My next chore for the day works my eyes a little better. I get my tablet out and read the bible, write a post, answer email, whatever else needs my attention.

After sitting down for a bit after my busy morning, I hit the jacuzzi to relax. As long as someone is home with me, I’ll get in the tub to relax. I get my morning care completed, get dressed and head out for errands, if I have any. I drive better than I walk, so relax.

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Early afternoon is usually nap time, if mom doesn’t need help.

After that, I finish supper and wait for Barry to get in. 

There are certain things I do on certain days. If I feel up to it, I go to the gym for my exercising. I get as walk in while at the park.Too cold for that now, but they do have a great trail at the park.

By the time Barry gets home and I’m ready for bed or another nap. After supper, we relax, discuss our day and make plans for the rest of the week or discuss our days.

There are those days filled with church, doctor’s appointments, family obligations and whatever else rolls around. 

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No matter what limitation I have, Barry and I have adapted our routine around the house to fit my needs. It is all about attitude and what you are willing to do. I chose not to sit down and give up, I-m fighting every step of the way. Also, educate yourself. Know what you are talking about when you see a doctor. There are days Barry and I know more about Cowden’s Syndrome than the doctors we see. Be educated!!!!

Daily Prompt: Toot Your Horn

Most of us are excellent at being self-deprecating, and are not so good at the opposite. Tell us your favorite thing about yourself.

I can give you numerous incidences of my many mishaps in life, but writing down what I have done right, is a different ballgame.

I think if we all took 5 minutes out of our day to write something good about ourselves, self-confidence everywhere would improve. Mental Health Clinics everywhere would lose business.

Now give me a sec to figure out how to toot my horn. This first one will sound a little strange, but it’s true. Those of you who know my blog, know my story.

  • I drive better than I walk.
  • I say what is on my mind, I do not play games.
  • If you tell me I can’t do something, only makes me want to do it more.
  • I love the Lord, studying the Bible and learning more about the Gospel of Christ.
  • I’m good with plants.
  • Improve the springtime.
  • I believe in love, marriage and the whole fairy tale.
  • I have a brain tumor that is a symptom of a generic disorder, called Cowden’s Syndrome. I do not let this effect my life. I live a happy, full life and intend to keep it that way until I can’t do it anymore!
  • I’m good with kids
  • I’m good with animals
  • I’m a great cook, without a recipe
  • I’m crafty and creative
  • I consider myself intelligent, but my brain tumor can get in the way
  • My husband knows I love him because I show him
  • My family knows they can count on me for whatever they need no matter what. Even though I have screwed things up with my older sister, I’d be there in a heartbeat if she needed me. 
  • I adore, Maggie, my dog-child.
  • I am good with geriatric patients
  • I’m an excellent nurse
  • I know my way around a computer and I love learning new things.
  • I love studying birds
  • I love to sing, but I only sing in church and the car for now. I don’t want to scare anyone with what the brain tumor has done to my voice. 
  • I still blush at the drop of a hat.

My favorite thing about myself, is that I love elderly people. I have spent 25 years as a nurse and have always gravitated back to the geriatrics field. My husband says this is where ‘I shine’.

The elderly are a fascinating group of people. I have worked with a stewardess that was on the first plane to ever land in Figi, a woman that was one of the first law enforcement officers in our state, an author, an artist, a woman who helped pioneer one of the largest charity organizations in our state,a comedian and many others that wrote just hardworking people that watched this country grow into the force it is today.

OK, ok , OK enough about me. I hope this is what the daily prompt was referring to. Otherwise, I’m just ranting again. I hope you enjoy reading this yourself!

Time Reblogged…….

******This is a re-blog. I felt it was appropriate to post it again, cuz that old dislike is the word ‘Time’ is coming out again. I have something go wrong and I feel like crap-ola. All the doctor’s office can say is give it time, they will come in. I truly do not like being in this position. One thing has changed since I wrote this, I have been reminded that I am not supposed to worry about things. I need to put it in God’s hands, he is in control. So much has gone on since 2009, I had kinda forgotten that huge fact. I am actually beginning to feel more at ease about my illness. I do not like getting worse, but I have to remember, I’m just getting closer to him. Honestly, being able to give a little of this worry up is wonderful! I’m loving the peace!*****************************************

I learned to hate that word several years ago. When you are healing after anything to do with the brain, everyone’s favorite thing to say is ” Time, just give it time.”. I do not know about anyone else, but both Barry and I can be a tad impatient. Time is a word impatient people can’t stand.

I have to admit that I enjoyed paying Barry back with a few time comments. You have to understand my husband’s quirky sense of humor. I know he thoroughly enjoyed telling me “Give it time.”. He smiled and giggled a little too much after saying it. I turned it around and now use it on him just a little. I tried to hide my snickering.

Ok, well down to the news I need to share. My visit to neuro-oncologist was quite informative. He gave us more information than we have ever received from other doctors. He confirmed that I do have Cowden’s Syndrome. With my medical history, he doesn’t feel the blood test is necessary. He is scheduling an MRI of the brain and a full body PET Scan. He says he hopes they are both negative, but to be prepared for the possibility. Said it could be as simple as the thyroid cancer not being totally removed or something else manifesting in the neurological symptoms that have been popping up. Here we go again with that word, TIME! Barry and I are praying and giving it to God. If it’s meant to be……….

 

Emory’s Brain Tumor Support Group

MkI will not be able to participate in BrainTumorThursday again this week due to the Support Group I attend monthly. The group meets the first Thursday of every month.

There is a guest speaker on a variety of topics. I am enclosing the link to the Group’s Page. You can follow the link to Emory’s very informative internet site. 

http://www.neurosurgery.emory.edu/BTSG/index.htm

The group of people who attend regularly are fantastic, energetic, optimistic and simply just a great group to see once a month. They really lift your spirits and are very encouraging. The staff at Emory are a hardworking group of professionals attempting to keep us up to date on current research.

Daily Prompt: Resolved

For years, one of my resolutions has been to eat healthier and get into better shape. I hate to admit, it took brain surgery to get me to follow through with this resolution.

My resolutions for 2010 involved eating right, getting my weight down and exercising more.

At this point in my life, I was looking at the possibility of being in a wheelchair the rest of my life. The neurosurgeon was telling me to correct the complications from my first surgery, he would have to operate again. It would make me better in some aspects, but worse in others. I would end up permanently in a chair and need someone with me around the clock.

At my age, I was not ready to accept such, so I went back to the advice I was given at rehab. They told me to ‘keep moving’. I was killing 2 birds with one stone. The way I saw it, if I ended up having a second surgery….being as strong as I could be, would be to my benefit and the lighter my bodyweight, I would be easier to get in and out of a chair if I needed help.

In 2010, I came up with a few resolutions on New Year’s Eve; I changed my diet habits, joined a gym and started doing things around the house just to make life easier around the house.

  1. cleaned out the pantry of anything I shouldn’t have
  2. joined a gym
  3. worked exercise into my schedule, no matter what else was going on!
  4. my doctor recommended a diet plan, where
    I had to see her regularly to follow my progress
  5. I got my hubby to agree to do everything with me.

By the time December 31, 2010 rolled around I had:

  1. lost 50 pounds
  2. dropped over 47 inches over my entire body
  3. dropped 8 sizes in clothing
  4. had more energy
  5. felt better, higher stamina

The best news of all came with my yearly check at the neurologist. There was new research and some of the problems I had been dealing with, since the first surgery, could now be managed through medications. I was off to meet another neurologist, but NO MORE SURGERY was the main thing I heard.

So, long story short, it took me half my life to actually meet a resolution, but I continue to do it today! With the guidance of the good Lord above, hopefully I can continue to get stronger and healthier with each day! Whatever his plan, I’m following Him!

Daily Prompt: Use It or Lose It!

This is my first daily prompt. I could not resist, because the title fits my everyday life. Every minute of every day can be summarized by ‘Use it or Lose it’.

I get up in the mornings and walk past my wheelchair to start my day. If I do not continue to walk, it will get to the point that I can’t.

I exercise one hour everyday because my muscles have a way of forgetting how to act right, so I have to remind them.

I read my bible everyday, to strengthen my relationship with God and it exercises my eyes. Makes the muscles in my eyes work. They also tend to forget, overnight, how to act right. I also do about an hour of eye exercises daily just to help keep them strong. I do not care to lose my eyesight.

If I am up to it, I try to run a few errands alone, to keep up my stamina and maintain my independence. I love to window shop, if I can’t get out on my own, not sure what I’d do. Had my driver’s license a long time and I am not ready to part with it!

The one thing I did not like losing was my hair! It is hard to style your hair when you only have one useful hand. Short hair is easy to style and I can use my left hand enough to hold a round brush or a hair dryer. I will admit, I miss my ponytail!

Just about everything in my life works with the phrase, “Use it or Lose it”!

Update…..

 

For those of you that have followed my post the past few weeks, you know I haven’t been feeling well. We got an explanation today that we truly were not expecting.

In 25 years of experience as a nurse, I never pictured being on this end of a conversation. Apparently, I am in the early stages of kidney failure.

I have been the person consoling someone, when they get bad news, but I have never been the person needing the consoling. It was not a pleasant seat to be in.

We are hoping they have caught it in time and that something can be done. 

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. This has really bummed us out, we’re trying to stay positive.

Thank you all for letting me ramble!

Why?

When I first had brain surgery, my family and friends were incredibly supportive, until I started getting better and it was becoming obvious that I was disabled.

Most of my family has been behind me through everything. Others have had trouble dealing with the “New Me”.  I had trouble dealing with it for a while. I think I cried for 2 years at some part after the surgery.

Slowly, one by one “so-called friends” quit calling. My family changed slower. Mom, God bless her, still looks at me today as if it will be the last time she ever sees me. We have had a few rough moments, but she is still hanging in there with me.

Another relative has chosen to act like I don’t exist. I wish I could figure out how to settle this with them, but nothing seems to work. They claim there attitude toward me has not changed, when it so obviously has.

They do not call like they used too, when I call they act annoyed and are extremely short on the phone, When we are around each other, they are snappy and act annoyed when they cannot understand my voice, something I cannot help.

I am just at a loss. Everyone else is absolutely wonderful, and to my knowledge, other than have brain surgery, I’ve done nothing.

I know I am not the one with the problem and I pray for them regularly. Am I asking for the right things when I pray? Am I praying correctly? Should I approach this person and talk it out or pray with them?

What is it that makes people do this? I’m still me. The old me is in this body screaming to get out. I hate the way I am. But I can’t do anything about it. I just do not know.

To my family that has been fabulous, THANK YOU! I love all of you, dearly! Even the one having trouble. We are family. To my husband, my love, my soul-mate, DOUBLE THANK YOU WITH KISSES ON TOP! I would not be here if it weren’t for you!!!!!!

Ohmy, what is wrong with me!

I’ve just about had it.

Where do I sign up for a full body transplant? If they were doing those, I’d be the first one in line. I’d even keep my screwed up brain if my body would act right or should I be looking for the brain transplant line? That might be just the fix I need!

Something is going on and I cannot figure it out. I feel okay, not sick…..my energy level is just in the toilet. I think it is about to the point of being in the septic tank. I just cannot shake it.

As a nurse, I have told tons of people to listen to their bodies, they will usually tell you what they need. But what does my body need? It is telling me to do nothing but sleep.

Since the brain surgery, I’ve had a little trouble telling when I’m sick or getting sick. It’s hard to explain, but I have gone to the doctor feeling fine, for a check up or something to find out I have a raging fever. Usually ends up being bronchitis or a sinus infection.

The only issue I have had lately was a medication side effect. They took me off the medicine and the problem is going away.  If I get to feeling bad, I’ll get Barry to take me to the ER, but I hate the thought of that dreadful place.  

I have no headache, my neck is sore, but it is from the brain tumor pressing into nerves. I’ve been keeping up with all my check-ups and I take all of my medication as prescribed. I’ll just stay hydrated and take it easy through the holiday.

Although I do need to open the cookie factory for a while tomorrow. I may have to find a couple of recruits that will work cheap. There are two others around here that can be quite handy. I’ll stop rambling now. Going back to sleep. Night all!