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Daily Prompt: Competition

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What activity, task, or game most brings out your competitive streak? 

Board Games drive me insane. It doesn’t matter which one of them it is,I get angry thinking about them.  Just the thought of pulling a board game out gives my  competitive hormone the kick in the hiney it cannot stand.. Maybe it is the fact that I stink at every board game I have ever tried to play. Or it could be the no good braggers that I play with. Who knows? I’ll just continue to avoid them like the plague.

The only violence I have ever exhibited when playing, was with my ex-husband. He loved to play chess. I know how, but I stink. In one of his rare forms, when he was wiping the board with me, he went too far. I picked the board up and threw it at him. Needless to say, we never played again.

I’ve played Gin Rummy and Scrabble, with Barry, no problems. I do not think we’ll ever play chess. 

I Wanna Run Away!

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Please, someone tell me when it is okay to run away. I’m not sure how much more I can take before I crack. 

I live the “Life of Riley“. Honestly, I not sure what that means. Was it a TV show? Radio show? Cartoon? I’m going to look it up. The situations I’ve heard it used in usually involved someone having it made; not in need of anything; someone spoiled rotten. All of the above, at times, can describe my life.

I live in a beautiful home with the perfect husband and family pets. We have one boxer and one fish. One step-son that keeps his distance.

My husband and I are raising my mother. It can be a challenge at times. But we make it.

We are far from well off or rich, but we are comfy. A lot of people today can’t say that. It really hurts Barry and I to see others struggle. We help when we can, but keeping up with medical bills will eat you alive. 

Since 2009, Barry and I have run from doctor to doctor trying to figure my illness out. It is starting to feel like a waste of time. Every time I see a physician, something else is wrong.

Is this a never-ending battle? Is all the running around doing a bit of good? I guess I’m a little tired of being sick. I feel like my life is falling apart and I’m not sure what to do.

That doctor, last week, really threw me for a loop. Just uttering those 2 little words has my head in the toilet.

It was like the day the doctor told me about the brain tumor. “Oh by the way, you have a brain tumor.” That is how he told me. He added a few other things to it, but that was enough to shatter my world. My head was in a spin then, and it is spinning like a top now.

I’m not going to do anything stupid. God has kept me around for s reason. I have too much life left to live to do anything stupid, I’m just trying to write this down to see if it will shake me out of this funk.

I should be sleeping . Big birthday party tomorrow. Going to be a long day, I need my rest. Barry is snoring in the chair next to me as I type. Maggie is snoring on the couch. Maybe I should follow suit and go to sleep. Maybe I’ll feel better in the morning. 

Hope everyone has a good weekend. I’m trying to turn mine around. Be sweet!

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Maggie and the Alarm Clock

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This morning, Barry and I were awakened by our beloved boxer, Maggie May.

At night, Barry and I are guilty of falling asleep in our favorite chairs at night. We have done it so often that are now set a travel alarm clock, to keep Barry from being late to work.

This morning, Barry and I were all snuggled-up in bed, when that clock went off in the living room. When it didn’t stop ringing, Maggie brought the clock to Barry and dropped it on his head. We have tried to get her to fetch, I guess she has decided she’ll fetch what she wants. 

She clearly wasn’t ready to get up! 

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My New Least Favorite Words on Earth: Incidental Findings

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Dr. M, my now urologist, seems like a very good doctor with a great personality/bedside manner. My appointment today went great. The kidney ultrasound is good, with one little issue to follow. Otherwise Dr. M. says my kidney’s are beautiful. Awwww, how sweet. They better be! About the only organ I have left that functions correctly.

What gets me about Cowdens Syndrome is the unknown. Today, I’m told I actually have an organ that is functioning properly, but we need to watch this “one” little spot. We want to make sure it isn’t something forming that shouldn’t be where it is. So, my roller coaster of doctors continues.

On top of the little spot that needs watching on the right kidney. It appears there is an incidental finding on my liver. He would  like to schedule an MRI, to get a better look. So, more tests, more waiting and more unknowns.

I feel like I am fussing about what is going on in my body. I truly believe that Jesus died to save us from our sins. I believe that the Good Lord has a plan for us and we shouldn’t question that plan. My life is in his hands and I am not exactly how to hand my troubles over to the Lord and not worry.

After my appointment today, I wasn’t what I would call questioning things, but I was so frustrated with the news that it brought me to tears. When I got to a private place, I asked the Lord for the grace and strength I need to make it through all of this news. My fears eased.

It is just so incredibly hard to deal with all of this. Today, I felt like the robot from “Lost in Space“.Turning in circles, arms flopping, thinking, “fix me Will Robinson, fix me!” If it were only that easy.

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Quiet time

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It appears that someone has seen fit to give Barry and I a reprieve from running around like chickens with their heads cut off. We have managed  to carry out a few things around the house. Feels good.

Mom experienced a health issue and has been in the hospital all week. She is OK, but had to be admitted for a while.

The rat race begins again Monday morning with an MRI of my chest, leading to an evaluation later that day by a urologist.

I’m filling out the paperwork for the Cowden Syndrome Study and working on arranging a date for my family to get their trusting done. Mom being admitted through a loop in those plans.

My brother-in-law lost his mother, taking them out-of-town for a week. She had been sick for a while and the Good Lord called her home. She is no longer in pain and she is in a better place. I haven’t lost a parent yet, but helped Barry when he lost his mom. All around a difficult situation. Our prayers and concerns go out to Dennis and his family. We love them each and everyone, dearly.

So after several bumps in the road, maybe we can get the scheduling done for testing. I do not to mean to seem like I’m making light of their loss, I’m not. Under normal circumstances, I would have been in Idaho with them.

Six Word Friday: Serve

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   Serve

Even on Fridays, serve the Lord;

On Saturdays, we serve the Lord;

 On Sundays, we worship the Lord;

and we serve our many communities; 

We share our love through service;

and show our devotion to families;

as we teach our little ones;

all about community service and kindness;

serve is such a big word;

to cover in such a sentence;

I tried to show what service;

means in our lives today, forever;

we serve the Lord on Monday;

Tuesday; Wednesday; Thursday and any chance;

  service needs arise; we remain faithful;

Servants to the Good Lord above

 

 

 

Daily Prompt: 180 degrees

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Tell us about a time you did a 180 — changed your views on something, reversed a decision, or acted in a way you ordinarily don’t.

Right after my divorce, while on the job,  I was introduced to a guy by a friend and we started to date. I was never one to judge a book by it’s cover and to start off this guy appeared to be nice enough.

We dated a few months when I realized he was becoming a bit possessive and discussing our personal business with other employees that were totally inappropriate. I was taking the brunt of all the jokes and did not understand why.

It was approximately 2 days later;  when one employee shared the entire story with me. Later that afternoon, the nonsense started. My pager was going off 50+ times a minute and I actually caught him following me around town.

I turned the pager off and headed to my supervisor’s office. We had a discussion about the trouble I was having. I left my pager with her and went home. The next day, I received a call requesting my presence at a meeting.

When I got to the office, I was met in the conference room by his supervisor, my supervisor, the guy I had been dating and 2 lawyers.. I truly wasn’t sure what to expect.

I was informed that my ex-boyfriend would no longer be a problem, if he valued his job and they wanted to know what my intentions were. Other than being left alone to lead my life, I really did not want anything.

They sounded thrilled, asked me to sign some paperwork and I left. It wasn’t until later that it occurred to me that they were concerned that I was going to sue for sexual harassment. I hate to admit it, it never crossed my mind. I just wanted my privacy.

Not long after this meeting, I decided to make a change in careers. I did a 180 and got away from the nursing end of medicine for a while and went to work for a well known health insurance company.

I continued to have a few issues with my former boyfriend. When I actually caught him and could talk to him, I threatened calling his job. He left quickly and eventually left me alone.

I was enjoying the job I had for the longest time I held a lot of anger toward my ex-boyfriend and my employer. I learned to put everything behind me and get on with my life. I didn’t do anything wrong and I felt forced out of my job, because of the situation. It felt incredible to be able to jump right back into the workplace after basically being stalked.

I did a 180 in my career and didn’t act like I normally do in a relationship. My career would not be where it is today, if I had not made these changes. I thank the Lord for leading me in the right direction. I may have never met Barry, if all of this mess had not happened. Who knows?