Addendum: I am re-posting this for BrainTumorThursday. We are not going to be home for me to participate tomorrow, but I was hoping someone might have a clue as to what could be going on with me. It has been almost a week and I feel no better at all. Can’t get a doctor on the phone till tomorrow. I have since started retaining fluid all over my body. I do not eat salt, but I currently am carrying around over 10 extra pounds than I was a week ago. It happened over night. My wrists are even swollen.

I’m a little terrified at the moment. I feel extremely tired, my eyes have not wanted to focus most of the day, my balance has been non-existent today and getting up just to the bathroom is difficult.

Of course things like this always happen over a weekend when there is not a doctor to be found or on the beginning day of the biggest holiday weekend of the year. I prefer to actually speak to a doctor that actually knows me.

When my eyes act up, I cannot shake the fear of losing my eyesight. I have resigned myself to the fact that my wheelchair will replace my legs as my mode of transportation eventually.

If that is God’s plan, I’ll live my life the best I can and learn to love the “New Me”. I work on my eyes daily, but it doesn’t appear to help like it used to. Again, if this is part of the “New Me”, I’ll figure out my independence and take one day at a time.

I love Christmas, I refuse to get sick!

Hopefully, my body is still telling me I need more rest. Getting out of the house for anything for the next week will not only be stressful, getting home quickly will be impossible and the holidays brings the crazy out in some people. You just never know what might happen. Since I appear not to have caught up with myself, yet….maybe I should do a little more than just kick my feet up in my favorite chair!

I need to get my exercise routine started again in the morning. If I have the strength tomorrow, I’ll work that into our day. Keeping my body strong appears to keep my energy level up. If Barry is up to it, I’ll drag him to gym. It will not hurt either of us. Maybe trying to exercise will make me feel better, than attempting to rest. Not sure if the gym will be open tomorrow. If so, hopefully the “Rowdy Roosters” will still be in the hen-house. Sharing the gym with them can be a challenge.